Sometimes you can find love at an inconvenient time in your life.
It’s both magical and annoying.
Soul searching and reflective.
Demanding and rejecting.
Later, you realize that it wasn’t love.
Rather, the illusion of it.
Only illusions are painful.
#hespoilsme on sale on Amazon!!!
This project has been a true labor of love. I honestly thought that it would have been on sale by now. Instead, I’ve found growth in the struggle to bring it to life. What I learned in this particular struggle is to stay with it, even when I was frustrated, even when I felt clueless and even when I was ready to give up. However, I knew that I could not move on to the next project until this one was completed.
Between 2009 and 2016, I self-published 3 books; Ghetto Chick, Infused and #hespoilsme. They have sat in my home and on my laptop for years. This year I made it a goal to create covers for all them and to get them on sale on Amazon.
It was all a dream. Now that dream is a near reality as I have completed the creation of the eBook.
My mommy tells me often, that I’ve always been a dreamer. However, I never dreamed that I would be so immersed in my creativity to the point that it pulls at me to completion. Once I’m done, I am not only proud of my work, I also feel as if energy has left my body. When I finished this project last night and sent it to the printer I was so tired that I fell asleep completely dressed.
So, when will this eBook be for sale? I have no idea. I am picking up the copy today. I need to sit with it and love on it in its entirety before I completely release it to the world. This book is different for me. It details a romantic encounter after my divorce and another failed relationship. I found love. It was inconvenient and beautiful. It was loving. It was sensual. It was out of comfort zone, kinda like creating this ebook.
Hmmm…..
More information soon to come.
#hespoilsme
The attraction was real.
Just not the timing of it.
It would have worked out,
Maybe 20 years prior.
Maybe 10 prior.
Just not when we met.
He spoiled me, at an inconvenience.
Ghetto Chick is a book of poetry and writings that I wrote in 2009, after my failed marriage and entering into a relationship way too soon after my separation.
In that relationship, I was encouraged to learn about the business of self-publishing. Eventually the relationship took different turns which prompted me to grab a notebook to begin writing about my experiences.
The title, Ghetto Chick, actually came out of a heated discussion where I responded, “You don’t want a nice girl. You want a ghetto chick.” Hence the title was birthed.
Ghetto Chick is some of my most honest thoughts of a woman, who was left by her husband, while raising two beautiful brown boys, taken for granted by her lover and yet she still sought after God through the hurt, the pain and the discouragement.
So, why now? Why release Ghetto Chick in 2020, eleven years after it was written? The most honest answer is, because it’s time. Ghetto Chick represents so much. It’s my first self-published book. It’s the soundtrack to my book Infused. It will be my first book that I create in digital format. In essence, Ghetto Chick is my baby, it’s my heart. It was the beginning of me having the courage to speak my truth. I didn’t know that then. I truly realize it now.
I’m looking forward to sharing a part of me that was so broken over a decade ago that it led me to writing and to following my dreams. I can’t wait to share the beautiful digital Ghetto Chick eBook with you.
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